Love conquers all?

This week has been incredibly challenging. Fair warning people, if you stand on something, it WILL be challenged. I said I was a prophet who would declare His words when and wherever He wanted me to. I said I had conquered my anger, and I said I had dealt with my past "mom" issues. I also said I would love unconditionally when all the rest failed because love conquers all and covers a multitude of sin. I can tell you now, that I have proven myself wrong at every possible turn. Lets break this down, shall we?

1.) I am a prophet. I will speak whenever wherever He leads me without hesitation. God said, "Hmmmmm, interesting. Ok, Jennifer."

So he sends my personal trainer, whom I ask a few innocent questions, who ends up telling me that he has been visited by a "evil entity" and "weird stuff" has happened to him all of his life (he should have died at birth from a heart condition, and when he lived they told his parents that he would not live past 20, have blood clot issues and have seizures until then. A random man in a grocery store came up to his father and told his father that his child would live. He has never had any problems since then, just to give you an idea of how much God wants this kid).

He has no idea I am a Christian. We have never talked about such things. I panic when it comes to "demons", giving them more power then they deserve. he also questions the existence of aliens and doesn"t believe in God. I ran fast, I ran hard, and I got mad at God because it got real, real fast. After calming down I ended up telling him that I am, "kinda like that man that told your dad you would live, and I thought that was my calling." I then told him that it was apparent to me that God had a purpose for his life, no doubt about it, and it's freakin' awesome. It took him 3 hours to respond but finally responded with,  "You are a good person." In response to which I said, "And so are you. I see you as you could be, not who you are. Start believing in yourself already." No response yet, but this story is not over people, and you have no idea how hard this was for me. This is MY gym. MY safe heaven where I leave my stress. How dare GOD fulfill the desires of my heart by seeing change. How dare He. "sigh"

2.) I got angry, very angry today and responded to a very good friend of mine out of anger. It had to do with very deep rooted emotions concerning my mother, which I did not even realize until a dear friend told me that was were it was coming from. "sigh"   I know what they were doing was wrong but I responded without God, and that is never, ever good.

So, with all that regression, I started thinking about love. What does it mean to love and be loved unconditionally? How does love cover a multitude of sins? Why is the greatest of all these love? Simple. Because God said so.

1 Corinthians 13, baby. We all know it. We have all read it, but have you ever stopped to REALLY take a look and realize how to love someone?

"¹ If I speak in the tongues of men or of angels, but do not have love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. ² If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing. ³ If I give all I possess to the poor and give over my body to hardship that I may boast, but do not have love, I gain nothing

1.) Well, shit. ALL the prophecy in my world means nothing if I do not have love. I have gained nothing.

 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. ⁵ It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. ⁶ Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. ⁷ It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

2.) I am not patient. I am not as kind as I could be. I often boast and tend to be on the proud side, if you have not noticed. I am easily angered. I don't trust. I don't always persevere.

⁸ Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away.

3.) WHAT?? LOVE is more important then prophecy??? Love will stand longer and shall not seize?

 For we know in part and we prophesy in part, ¹⁰ but when completeness comes, what is in part disappears. ¹¹ When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put the ways of childhood behind me. ¹² For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.

that is heavy....and in conclusion...

¹³ And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

So, no wonder God has been screaming at me about love. I had no idea what that really meant. if I am going to be prophetic I best be figuring out how to love in the way God intended.

so, when you say you LOVE someone remember what Love is. I know I will.